Keeping
spiritual balance can be challenging or feel nearly impossible when life seems
to turn completely upside down. Here’s something that helps.
It was
the third trip to the emergency room in four weeks. But instead of being led to
where my mother was, as had happened all of the other times over the past
several months—including just two days before this event, I was taken into a
private room by a nice woman, then immediately followed in by three E.R. staff,
who needed to know if my mother had a Do Not Resuscitate order in place. They
told me timing was critical; they didn’t believe she could breathe on her own.
Mom’s systolic blood pressure was 50, her heart rate was low, and she was
unresponsive. I was being asked to make a decision about whether my mother was
to continue to live or not, and being given only moments to take this in.
While
I dealt with the shock of this information and an emergency team desperate for
a decision, Source had other plans. I asked to see my mother; and when she
finally heard my voice and said my name, her condition began to improve—slowly,
but the numbers were going up, not down. And when medical staff felt they could
take her for a CAT Scan (she’d hit her head when she’d lost consciousness), and
the room cleared, I got on my knees and asked for guidance, which I received
within seconds. I still had the rush of adrenaline, but did feel calmer because
I’d been given good guidance from Source.
Once
stabilized, Mom was admitted and placed into a room. We talked about a lot of
things. That was the last time we were able to have that kind of conversation
for several days. She was septic, meaning her blood was infected, which meant
her brain was affected, as well. All of this created dementia and she also
began to hallucinate, and the hallucinations went on for more than 24 hours.
Her agitation was so great they had to give her a potent drug every several
hours to calm her down so she could rest. Once things began to settle down, she
remained confused and easily agitated for several days. To say the experience
was severe on all levels is accurate.
It
became obvious, first to me then to my mother once she felt better, that there
was much to get in order. My days became quite busy with so many things to
think about and take care of that almost nothing about my life was the same or
what I’d call “typical”; and I was exhausted.
Once
circumstances became more manageable, I knew I needed to continue on with tasks
that needed immediate attention, but also knew my inspiration was way down, as
was my energy. But I had time to think again, rather than just be in
action-mode, so drew on something I’d heard in an Abraham-Hicks video. Every
morning and as often as I thought about it during the day, I made several
statements to Source (and continue this practice). You might consider using
these now, but especially if or when the shift hits the fan in your own life:
Thank
you for loving me.
Thank
you for always being with me.
Thank
you for always supporting me.
Thank
you for inspiring me.
Thank
you for always providing what’s needed, and in right timing.
Thank
you for guiding and assisting me to be lovingly appropriate and appropriately
loving.
The
key to feeling even a bit better when times are tough or tense, or both, is to
find at least one thought that lifts you up even just a bit so you don’t feel
utterly alone or adrift—feelings which can happen when you feel shaken to the
core by events. I will tell you that when the experience with my mom was really
bad, metaphysics or spiritual practice was the last thing on or in my mind. I
carry no guilt or self-criticism about that. Now that I have some time to give
the experience reflection, I am giving the metaphysical aspect of manifestation
and tangled hierarchy (experiences of individuals overlapping) deeper
consideration. And I know I’ll be looking at this entire experience as it
relates to me, and I to it, for quite a while.
I also
ask you to pay attention, as well, to the fact that even amid all goings-on
initially in the E.R., once the room was empty of all energies but mine and
Source, I was able to regroup, so-to-speak, was able to calm myself enough to
consciously turn to my connection with Source in my mind and heart.
I also
reached out to people, and deeply appreciated their support and prayers. Too
often, we try to carry our burdens alone. We are stronger when there are many
“hands” and hearts helping us to get up and stay up.
Never
cause yourself to be without support from others; reach out, and let them
assist you in whatever way is appropriate for them—but don’t hesitate to
isolate yourself for a while in order to have no “static” interfering with your
connection with Source and your self. Don’t judge yourself if you temporarily forget
pretty much all the metaphysics or spiritual practice you know when dealing
with an emergency or utter exhaustion or frustration; neither be surprised if
you do remember what you know while experiencing these, and begin to put it
into practice. Find something like the statements I’m using to help you regain
your footing, as soon as it feels or becomes appropriate for you to do so.
These are good practices, ones you’ll appreciate, especially when you need them
the most.
Practice makes progress.
© Joyce Shafer
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